The Mid Summer Panic

Friday, July 24, 2015


It happens to me every year at this time.

That first night I hear the song of the cicada bugs hissing in the trees just as the summer sun starts to set, panic sets in. Because everyone knows the cicada come around to warn us that summer is more than half way over. And I'm not ready. I never am. But more so this year than ever because summer just got to Chicago! Up until last weekend I've been in jeans every single day.

Where are all of those steamy mornings that lead into even steamier afternoons? And nights spent outside drinking beer on a patio under twinkle lights surrounded by friends where everyone is complaining about how warm it still is even at 11 p.m.? I'm yet to feel the sting of the summer heat.

And then I start to remember all of the ambition I had for myself back in May and I can't help but laugh. And also feel guilty like I always do when I never meet my own expectations.

I'm going to run every single morning!

Yoga by the lake at 6 a.m.!

Green smoothies for breakfast, lunch and dinner!

I'll shop at the farmers market every day, who cares if it's almost twice as expensive? It's FUN to pretend I'm a farmer's market kind of person.

And I'm going to write 100 books. 

The goals I make for myself are adorable.

That girl who lives inside my head must have no idea who lives outside of it. I am constantly disappointing her. But she means well.

Every time I step onto our little urban patio to write one of the thirty novels I'm working on I end up like this.


Magazine and wine. Or one of the ten books I'm currently reading. Can you tell I have trouble concentrating on one thing at a time?

So Cicada, while I love your song because you only come out during the dead of summer and you fill my ears with a gush of nostalgia; I think you're early this year. Chicago has at least two solid months left. At least. So try to be a little more quiet for the next few weeks, would you? Thanks.

The summer panic feeling is very real. Does anyone else suffer?

17 comments:

  1. I heard them last night for the first time here in NC and had the exact same thought. Summer can't be over, it just got started!!

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  2. Do you have fireflies in Chicago? I think that's my ultimate summer signifier.

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  3. I live in Scotland and we seem to have skipped summer completely this year, nothing but wind and rain!

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  4. The end of summer is sad. Except it is still. so. hot. Honestly now that I spend most of my summer indoors at a desk with no windows, I could care less about the seasons. I love early fall. It's my fave!

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  5. I'm suffering from a life panic. Just me?

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  6. I always suffer from this!! I set myself such a huge 'summer bucket list' every year that I often have to re-assess what how I am actually going to be spending summer!

    Abbie|Thoughtsandthunder

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  7. I definitely have this problem. The end of July hits and I think of all the fun summer things I still have done and start to mourn the fact that summer is ending so fast when it feels like it just started.

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  8. Put me in this category!!! I have ALL summer off because I am a counselor and I even made a bucket list. I am trying so hard to plow through that bucket list, but I'm only about halfway done I think. I always have the biggest ideas!! :)

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  9. I feel like everyone summer flies by and before you know it, it's Fall and you're left wondering "what the heck?!"

    It's been a pretty mild Summer here in STL as well, I'm not ready for it to be anywhere near over :(

    <3 Melissa

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  10. Ugh, summer just came to Michigan too. I hate thinking about fall coming. It's such a bummer.

    ~Ashley @ A Cute Angle
    acutelifestyle.blogspot.com

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  11. I can't believe summer for you guys may be on its way out. It seems like winter lasted forever and a day!

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  12. I work at a college and school starts in three weeks. I'm trying not to freak out because where did the summer go???

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  13. Totally suffering. We've just gotten summer as well and it's already August. I feel like those long days are shortening and I'm not ready to say goodbye to sunshine :(

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