I often struggle with the difference between setting goals and just writing down my dreams.
The problem lies in the fact that I’m more of a dreamer than a do-er. I’m working on this. It’s not exactly the best trait, I’m aware. I could just open a notebook and write for hours about where I hope to be someday and what I hope to do. I find it therapeutic.
I’m just worried I might still be doing this at age sixty five.
So in 2015 I stopped daydreaming so much and started doing. I looked back at the goals I wrote down on January 1, 2015 and was pretty surprised to see I achieved a lot of them. No, I didn’t finish my book, or win an oscar, or save ALL the dogs (I write those three every year) but I hit some numbers regarding my business that I wrote down that I never actually thought I would hit.
The upside to being a constant goal setter and record of life keeper is that I’m able to step back in time and see where I was a few years ago. When I look back to where I was just a few years ago at this time I was a mess. I think it was the winter of 2013 where I could barely pay my rent and I had no more than $400 in my bank account at any given time. The company I worked for went bankrupt and I found myself in a real pickle.
There’s an entry somewhere in my rambling notebooks where I wrote “I will never work for someone other than myself again.” I wrote it because I was mad, sad, motivated, depressed, and mostly determined to never be in that position again where my fate was in someone else’s hands.
Surprisingly, since I wrote that down I haven’t worked for anyone else.
But anyone who is self employed knows the fear is always there. There’s always that small feeling of the rug being pulled out at any moment… Sometime when I’m feeling raw and really truthful I need to write a post about that dark time when I was unemployed and scared and just trying to keep my head above water. I get tired of the fluffy bullshit of blogging sometimes and the notion all bloggers just get to shop all day and drink lattes.
I’m rambling again. I’m not kidding you, this week is weird. It’s messing with my head. Bless your heart for sticking with me these past few days.
As I was saying.
Rather than sharing with you my 150 resolutions and my plan to expand my store and make nebrowse.com twice as big, instead I’ll tell you my mantra for 2016. When I pick a mantra, I repeat it every day. And I write it down in notebooks 100 times a day. I’m real crazy like that and not even trying to hide it.
So here it is, my 2016 mantra:
Create good stuff.
Do good things.
The rest will take care of itself.
That’s really all we can do, isn’t it? I know it’s not life changing by any means, but it’s kept me balanced lately.
When I get overwhelmed about comparing myself to others and the fact everyone is “moving up” faster, or “doing better,” or whatever other whiny crap I find myself bitching about a little voice pops up and says, stop, just stop.
All I can do is keep working and being better than I was yesterday. The most important things you have in this life is what you create.
Peace be with you. Bless this bread, bless this meat. May the force be with you. Thank you for coming to my sermon today.