Given that today is Friday the 13th it only felt right to sit down and write a post about things that scare me. But then I remembered I already wrote that post in May of last year.
But alas I’m still craving “scary talk” so let’s discuss something else. Like perhaps sleep paralysis. Are you familiar?
The other night I was deep in Reddit, as I tend to be before bed, reading threads about dreams when I came across a thread about sleep paralysis. It’s defined as, “A temporary inability to move or speak while falling asleep or upon waking.” It’s happened to me a handful of times and I had no idea it had a name. I always just called it a nightmare.
If it’s happened to you, I imagine you might call it the same. Because it’s not simply the inability to move or speak, at least not for me. When it happens to me, it usually goes down like this: I think I wake up because everything looks completely normal in my surroundings, until the moment when I see, or even worse, simply feel something in the room with me. Sometimes I hear it whisper my name. And whispers in dreams are extremely unsettling. I can never never quite tell what it is for sure, but I know it’s there. I feel it coming in the door, or simply hovering at the end of my bed, and as it moves closer I can’t move or yell. I’m stuck in my body. And it’s dark and terrifying and the fear feels so real. It’s there right up until the moment I wake up.
And then I’m covered in sweat and usually can’t get back to sleep because I’m certain death is near.
From what I’ve read, some people go through this almost every night. I’m lucky it’s only happened to me about ten times, but I distinctly remember every time. It tends to happen when I’m sick and running a fever, staying in a hotel room, or when I’m sleeping alone in my room.
A friend in college once told me that this has happened to her as well and that it’s the work of the devil… She was catholic. I believed her at the time. I do not anymore. I am certain it’s sleep paralysis. According to google and reddit, there’s a lot of people who think it’s demonic. Again, I do not.
Kind of a random Friday post, I know. But once I learned this was actually a thing I got really interested in it and am curious if anyone else has experienced it.
Dreams intrigue me. I love that I almost always remember mine and they’re incredibly vivid. Although sometimes my subconscious gets lazy and I have the same four on repeat depending on my mood.
My top 4 include:
1. finding wads of money everywhere I look (this is a fun one.)
2. not making it to my last high school basketball game (this one hurts my heart.)
3. going to the bathroom in a stall that suddenly has no walls and is somewhere a toilet shouldn’t be- like in the middle of a restaurant or school and everyone is staring at me (this one is humiliating.)
4. the euphoric dream. I won’t go into detail about this one because it’s kind of embarrassing to admit (it has to do with a TV show and writing for it) but I almost always wake up from it with tears streaming down my face and they’re tears of pure joy. WEIRD!!!! I know. This dream doesn’t come around often, but I love when it does because the euphoria I feel is so crazy and unlike anything else.
Dreams are nuts. What ones do you have frequently have?