The Odds Weren't In My Favor

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Well it would appear the odds were not in my favor regarding that audition I had a few days ago. As much as I hit refresh over and over yesterday, the "we want YOU!" email never came. And the really sad part is I even checked my spam for it. And I never check my spam. I couldn't have felt more like Jim Carrey from Cable Guy, "Hey Steve, it's me again, wasn't sure if you called while I was out... thought your voicemail might be broken, or mine, so I was just double checking... Anyway, call me back...."

But alas, no email. Not even in my spam. In all honesty I'm getting better at this whole game of rejection in this dirty world of acting I've entered as of late, but better doesn't mean I'm completely used to it- yet. At the end of the day it still just sucks. It doesn't help the fact that I'm a dweller. I will go over every situation that didn't go my way at least twenty times in my head trying to figure out what I did wrong. Where did I screw up? Was it my outfit? Did I start fake tap dancing? Did I accidentally do my Target lady voice? Target lady has been my nervous voice lately... I know, I know it's completely unoriginal. I'm working on breaking it, don't worry.

But then I saw this on Instagram last night and it was just was I needed. So thanks Barbara Sims for posting. I needed it for more than a few things in life right now.



The thing is, Chicago is so full of talented people it's mind boggling. There's just a lot of funny ass people who live in this wonderful little city of wind, and as soon as I think I might start to have it figured out just a little bit, fifty other people come in and knock me right back down in my place. It's quite humbling, I must say. So I'm just doing what I can for the moment, and that's only trying to focus on things that are within my control. Like I always say, que sera sera.

But on the bright side, there's always another thing just around the corner. Like the fact Harlow and I might be extras in a short video tomorrow. That's right, I said Harlow and myself. I've always had a feeling he's going to make it big before me, anyway. And I'm okay with that, it's all for the greater good.


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32 comments:

  1. I applied for a job last week on a whim and didn't really realize how bad I wanted it until I didn't get it. But you're right there is always something new around the corner. Hey, if you can ride Harlow's coat tails to fame, do it! You could star in Best in Show 2 together!

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  2. rejection sucks a sack of balls. i've gotten it from boys, jobs, schools, etc. the pill becomes smaller each time you have to swallow it, but just think of it as a really poor way of being told "there's something better"...because that's essentially what it means. keep yo head up, girl!

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  3. Rejection sucks big time. I think it's a great character builder though. When I used to audition I'd say I'm going in for a rejection-just to take the pressure off. Not that I didn't try but I really went in with 0 expectations and I had to do it that way to preserve my sanity. After a while it feels very pointless but you have to get them under your belt. It takes a whole lot of no's for you to get to a yes. Then the no's start all over again and hopefully you land back on a yes.

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  4. You going and auditioning is a fete in itself! Keep at it and I am sure something great will come your way!

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  5. Good luck to you and Harlow!

    I tend to relive moments where I feel like I messed up too. I try to just make it a learning experience instead of beating myself up over it. We often don't know how close we are to success since we're focusing on our failures. Gotta think positive :-)


    Big Apple, Little Bites

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  6. I'm sorry you didn't get it, but that quote is a great way to look at it!

    Kristin
    crumbsandcurls.blogspot.com

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  7. You and Harlow will be a famous duo.

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  8. Awh Tay, you get a million props for always going and trying and not letting them knock you down for long. You're one of the funniest people I "know" and I'm always rooting for you (and Harlow)!

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  9. I have no doubt your time will come. well, yours and harlows.

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  11. I just like to remember that you have to have some rainy days to appreciate the sun...and you have to have some sad days to appreciate the happy ones.... :)

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  12. You are above and beyond all those who never try! Just keep trying and something will come. Then we can say we knew you when!

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  13. That's a great quote, but I agree with rebeccajh that even auditioning is a fete in itself. You'll just keep getting better and better! I'm kind of doing the same thing with a job interview I had last week where I keep telling myself the reason I haven't heard back is that they are just disorganized or whatever, but that the callback is coming. We'll see...

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  14. I can totally relate to how disappointing is! I auditioned for The Taste (it's the food version of The Voice), and made it to the last round of auditions and then heard nothing. It was heartbreaking to make it so far and then to not make it.

    Remember there are ALWAYS other opportunities. I promise. I have my fingers crossed for you!

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  15. I think everyone can relate to how you're feeling - it sucks, and I'm sorry that you're experiencing it. On the bright side, I really do think those rejections make us stronger. In the meantime, have a delicious beverage (I'm all about the Schlafly Pumpkin Ale right now) and snuggle up with Harlow.

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  16. You're always a star in our eyes! And when you say, "let it go".. does that mean pass gas?

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  17. Love the Cable Guy reference...but keep your head up girl. ;)

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  18. Love your blog always.... and the cable guy reference loved it!! Keep your head up :):)

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  19. I'm sorry you didn't get it! Rejection does suck, but I think I'm getting better with it too, because I mean at least I don't burst into tears immediately and go to bed at 6pm anymore haha. It's a tough job market out there man

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  20. Bummer!! Chicago is so full of funny and talented people, it's crazy. Does crowd participation help get you in? Because I will totally come watch next time and clap loudly.

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  21. Rejection sucks, plain and simple. Sorry you didn't get the part, but I know there are plenty of stellar roles out there with your name on them. And congrats on the video to you and Har!

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  22. Rejection is only rejection if you think of it as that. If you didn't get the part, it's not because they rejected you, it's just that the part was meant for someone else. It's kind of like dating. If a guy doesn't call you back, it doesn't mean you are a reject, it just means you're not the right person for that guy. :)

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  23. I'm glad you're willing to let Harlow take the spot light away from you. That is so big of you.

    Not to worry. That means something bigger and better is waiting for you...

    after Harlow becomes the big ass star we all know he is destined to be of course. You'll need to take you place in behind him. That's what you get for being his pooper scooper. Shit bag holders always go second. I know. My pug points this out to me regularly.

    bisous
    Suzanne

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  24. They just don't know how awesome you are yet.

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  25. Sorry to hear that you didn't get the audition, but as you said something else is always around the corner. It's a fickle industry and hard to get into, so I commend you more for trying as opposed to anything else. Go you!

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